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The Half Turn

The Half Turn

2018

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  • 01

    Morning has broken
    Our will along the creases
    Blind with devotion
    We smile as it all goes to pieces

    So what’s left to prove now?
    Why grow beyond all ambition?
    What couldn’t be true now
    Is burning bright as fiction

    Settle down, I feel it too,
    But I, I, I,
    I’m waiting on the bloom
    I’m too obsessed to be amused
    But I, I, I,
    I’m waiting on the bloom

    What’ll we turn into?
    Will we be what we meant to?

    Settle down, I feel it too,
    But I, I, I,
    I’m waiting on the bloom
    I’m too obsessed to be amused
    But I, I, I,
    I’m waiting on the bloom
    Hold my breath and hide my eyes
    But I, I, I,
    Don’t know what else to do
    I’m too obsessed to be amused
    But I, I, I,
    I’m waiting on the bloom

    What’ll we turn into?
    Will we be what we meant to?

  • 02

    Take my body ‘cross the ocean
    Let the world turn below
    Take me only where I’m going
    Don’t you worry about my soul
    Just get me there is all I’m asking
    Back to the place where I was born
    Where all we learned about compassion
    We had to make up all on our own

    Is this a lifetime?
    No less no less no more
    Between the bright lines
    Oh no, oh no
    Is this a lifetime?
    Say yes say yes or no
    Between the bright lines
    What am I fighting for?

    Who owns the land that holds my headstone?
    Who is the girl that loves him so?
    Who holds the hand that holds the weapon
    We should have buried long ago?

    Is this a lifetime?
    Between the bright lines
    Is this a lifetime?
    Between the bright lines
    What am I fighting for?

  • 03

    “Everyone lies.”
    You said through the door
    As if it could explain it all,
    As if it stood for more.
    It pulls at the wound
    We make when we’re born,
    With hurricane impatience
    And dwindling remorse
    And shifting eyes that bring us prying to the source

    Everyone lies, and everyone knows
    Sweetened or bitter, we swallow it whole

    Cut on a lathe,
    Turn over turn
    You polish your existence
    In a bright and glossy world
    But you’re no craftsman,
    Don’t lie to yourself
    You got a little lucky
    Just like everybody else
    It doesn’t fit the story you were born to sell, but

    Everyone lies, and everyone knows
    Sweetened or bitter, we swallow it whole
    Everyone lies, get in on the joke
    Sweetened or bitter, we swallow it whole
    Doesn’t everyone? Don’t you?

    Make a smile and join our hands
    Salt the ice and fake amends
    At least we have a lot of friends
    Doesn’t everyone?

    Doesn’t everyone crack
    The closer you look?
    We see them in their shamelessness
    But we’ll still read the book
    We spit behind their backs but we’ll still read the book

    Everyone lies, and everyone knows
    Sweetened or bitter, we swallow it whole
    Everyone lies, get in on the joke
    Sweetened or bitter, we swallow it whole
    Doesn’t everyone? Don’t you?

  • 04

    When the world was young
    You left your traces in all our songs
    And everyone you met, they couldn’t help but fall in love
    When the world was young

    When our bodies were new
    You called the mountains, they answered you
    And I could make an ordinary stone into a jewel
    When our bodies were new

    Oh early grey, what kind of trouble am I in?
    I’m lost and gone away
    Lost and gone away
    There’ll be a soft spot in my heart for you
    As long’s we both shall live
    It’s not for me to say
    Not for me to say

    When I saw you tonight
    I spoke the words and I watched your eyes
    And walking home I saw them glowing in the eastern sky
    When I saw you tonight

    Oh early grey, what kind of trouble am I in?
    I’m lost and gone away
    Lost and gone away
    There’ll be a soft spot in my heart for you
    As long’s we both shall live
    It’s not for me to say
    Not for me to say
    And you’re awful far away, oh early grey
    But it’s not for me to say

    Not for me to say
    When I saw you tonight
    When our bodies were new
    When the world was young

  • 05

    The hungry wolf made by your hands
    Thrown by the lamplight to the wall
    We howled for hours and now we gotta sleep it off
    Just kids on a blanket,
    Legs crossed and quiet

    Half of everything
    Broken off or stalled
    Thought I could catch the fall, well
    Did I? Did I? Did I? Or didn’t I?

    I don’t wanna fight
    I don’t wanna fight
    Couldn’t do it even if I’m right

    Desire walked and left me begging
    Laid me across your open hands
    Just another notion you might never understand
    Making a fist
    That’d crush everything you’re holding

    I didn’t have to fold
    I wanna say I tried
    I wanna say I tried, well
    Did I? Did I? Did I? Or didn’t I?

    I don’t wanna fight
    I don’t wanna fight
    Couldn’t do it even if I’m right
    ‘Cause I don’t wanna fight

    Now the wolf is in the fold
    I wanna say I tried
    I wanna say I tried, well did I?

  • 06

    Now we disappear
    Into the naked light
    You wanna say I’m wrong
    I wanna hope you’re right

    Shadows a hundred
    Quiet and deep
    Crept from the oceans
    Laid between you and me

    I didn’t try to
    But I’d hide from you
    I could’ve done better
    But nobody asked me to

    I broke apart for love
    But you like your floors clean
    I’m too busy to sweep
    You’re too busy to dream

    Shadows a hundred
    Quiet and deep
    Crept from the oceans
    Laid between you and me

    I didn’t try to
    But I’d hide from you
    I could’ve done better
    But nobody asked me to

    I could’ve done
    I could’ve done better

  • 07

    Walk the hall and say goodnight
    Turn a cheek, turn out the light
    Laid awake a second night
    Feel wrong

    Hesitation burned the days alive
    The illusion we’ve been living by
    All you cradled in your eye
    Is gone

    And in the back of your mind:
    All of the time, we used to shine

    I can only reach you when you’re gone
    Am I the disappearing one?
    My name was first on your tongue
    Had ourselves a little fun,
    And from the ashes something begun
    Our way

    And in the back of your mind:
    All of the time, we used to shine

    Whatever happened to me?
    I’m making it through
    Whatever happened through the wall?
    We never really knew
    What happened,
    Whatever happened to all of the time?

    All of the time, we used to shine
    All of the time, we used to shine
    We used to shine

  • 08

    The city sank below the clouds
    In two dotted lines we froze on the glass
    I sang the words, you wrote them down
    Not a blue tattoo but something that lasts
    Something that lasts
    Something I can’t get past

    ‘Cause Sarah I was in your head
    Sarah I was in your head, was I ever in your heart?
    Sarah you were in my ears
    Sarah you were in my eyes, but you were never in my arms

    Was every gift some kind of test?
    Half a word from you, and my hand’s on your door
    Our perigee, two hearts at rest
    Or two parallel lines, alone on the floor
    Not asking for more
    Like nowhere I’d been before

    But Sarah I was in your head
    Sarah I was in your head, was I ever in your heart?
    Sarah you were in my ears
    Sarah you were in my eyes, you were never in my arms

    Sarah I was in your head,
    But you were never in my arms
    And it’s a long, long way to the nearest star

  • 09

    (Settle down, I feel it too,
    But I, I, I,
    I’m waiting on the bloom
    I’m too obsessed to be amused
    Too obsessed, too obsessed,
    too obsessed, too obsessed)

  • 10

    Look into my eyes
    And be a moment still, and a moment wise
    Tonight we have undone
    The secret pasts we’re running from,
    We’re running from

    No, not here, why now?
    Oh can’t we stitch it up somehow?
    Too proud, too late,
    It’ll keep us awake, afraid, away, and down
    Can’t we stitch it up somehow?

    We are staying young
    On the blood of the wilder deeds we’ve done
    So tonight we close our eyes
    And let our graces leave us in their time
    All in their time

    No, not here, why now?
    Oh can’t we stitch it up somehow?
    Too proud, too late,
    It’ll keep us awake, afraid, away, and down
    Can’t we stitch it up somehow?

    Why can’t control? Why can’t become?
    Why can’t refrain? When can again?
    Why never know? Why let it go away?

    Slowly we control the pain,
    Becoming lonely we refrain again
    Again we slowly learn, but never know
    We let it go away

    No, not here, not now!
    Oh can’t we stitch it up somehow?
    Too proud, it got too late,
    It’ll keep us awake, afraid, away, and down
    Can’t we stitch it up somehow?

Echoes

Echoes

2015

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  • 01

    Laid out in pieces
    Wed to the floor
    Friends all caught dancing
    Out the back door
    Not leaving darkness
    Not leaving light
    They didn't bring nothing
    But fit in alright

    They don’t deserve my withering eye
    It echoes a longing they can’t recognize

    Not one to shake a
    Ship from its course
    Me and my ideal
    Split by divorce
    You shrug at the burden
    You shrug off the cost
    And into the fire
    With feelings you’ve lost

    But you don’t deserve my withering eye
    It echoes a longing you can’t recognize

    Caught in a slide
    And I’m falling right off of my feet
    Lost between the tides
    And suckered down to my knees

    Bred of suspicion
    The wolf at the door
    Sprung from your mind
    With a thundering roar
    Stories and histories
    Undone by its teeth
    Til permanent failure
    Was all you could see

    But I don’t deserve your withering eye
    It echoes a longing I can’t recognize

The Heartwood

The Heartwood

2015

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  • 01

    Sleeping lies and lines of rain
    Growing down through the heartwood
    Something’s born when old loves they die
    And so lay me down and keep me sleeping good

    Don’t put your dress back on
    It’s just before the dawn
    And the light fills your empty shoes
    It’s such a fragile start
    Our fragile moving parts
    So tiny I can’t refuse

    When are you coming back?

    Let’s make a quiet stand
    Let’s hold our sleepy hands
    And our faces against the moon
    Don’t lose the moment now
    Just when I’m learning how
    To write a fine line and sing it to you

Fool’s Gold

Fool’s Gold

2014

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  • 01

    Faint and precious light
    As it came into the night, I saw you
    Black against the sky
    Pinned between the morning sun and my eye

    Before my voice comes burning right through the cold
    I wanna know, I wanna know, I wanna know

    Am I seeing what I want, or just some fool’s gold?
    Am I seeing what I want, or just some fool’s gold?

    Still and silent wait,
    To see the sunlight bloom across the face I know
    And like in all my dreams
    Our eyes are just the same green, but I know

    That I could only love you cause I know how
    Why don’t it go, why don’t it go, why don’t it go?

    I wish the feeling would leave me, but it shines like Fool’s Gold
    I wish the feeling would leave me, but it
    Shines on, it shines on, it shines on.

    Maybe I’d always love you cause I know how
    But why did I go? Why did I go? Why did I go?

    I wish the feeling would leave me, but it shines like Fool’s Gold
    I wish the feeling would leave me

Go North

Go North

2013

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  • 01

    Night wonder, our second moon
    Bright mirror for the stars
    You led us out into the dark

    We’ve looked up for centuries
    Into your sacred home
    You step alone, crystal spark
    My comet

    I see wild, bright yearning
    That quivers deep in your eyes
    Immune to lies, some ancient hope

    That iris broke the sleep from
    The center of my chest,
    Show me your best brilliant stroke
    My comet

    This is my faltering’s silent reappearing,
    Deep in my blood
    This is my faltering’s desperate reappearing,
    Deep in my blood

    I adore you, I adore you,
    And I don’t know why
    You never can be mine, you never will be mine
    But I adore you and I don’t know why
    My comet

  • 02

    I’ll sleep away the autumn at home
    With the moon rising up through the ceiling
    The trees all crumbling down to their bones
    The weeping eucalyptus bending

    When I wake up,
    When I wake up, yeah
    I’ll be King of Nothing
    And why should I care?
    And why should I care?
    I, yeah, I’m the King of Nothing

    Who put these little lies in my head?
    What lives inside all of these secrets?
    We’re crumbling, crumbling down in your bed,
    These rumors too sad to believe in,
    So I won’t believe in them

    When I wake up,
    When I wake up, yeah
    I’ll be King of Nothing
    And why should I care?
    And why should I care?
    I, yeah, I’m the King of Nothing

    I’ll sleep away the autumn at home,
    The trees all crumbling down to their bones,
    The moon rising up through the ceiling,
    These rumors all I have to believe in,
    And I won’t believe in them

  • 03

    With better faces all around me
    A bitter future is upon me
    I’d open up my eyes

    But I can’t leave it alone,
    Leave it alone, leave it alone
    And why should I?

    I can see my father coming out, yeah,
    My ghost is growing in the mirror
    Looking clearer than my eyes

    And I can’t
    Leave it alone, leave it alone, leave it alone
    And why should I?

    And what the hell would me see on the bright side?
    Am I freaking out? Is this some puzzle now?
    Is there poison in my blood?
    Poison in my blood

    Why can’t I
    Leave it alone, leave it alone, leave it alone?
    And why should I?

    My only pictures are of other pretty pictures,
    Yeah, my ideas are nothing,
    Yeah, my ideas are bare as bones
    Barren as my bones

    And I can’t
    Leave it alone, leave it alone, leave it alone
    Leave it alone, leave it alone, leave it alone
    And why should I?

  • 04

    Look at the sky,
    We’re gonna take that sky,
    Gonna take it for ourselves
    We’re gonna take that sky,
    We’re gonna take that sky,
    And we’ll rain down from the clouds

    Isn’t the wind still blowing?
    We’re gonna catch that wind,
    Like diamonds catch the sun
    We’re gonna catch that wind,
    We’re gonna catch that wind,
    And we’ll fall down when we’re done

    I’ll be the fire, if you’ll be the fuel
    And together we’ll go rolling down the hill
    And if you’ll be a fighter, I’ll be a flame
    We’ll go wild if you only say you will,
    And I know that you will

    Look at the way you’re dancing,
    Well I can’t look away
    I see you burn that sand to glass
    And when you dance that way,
    And when you dance that way,
    You turn a cold man’s soul to ash

    I’ll be the fire, if you’ll be the fuel
    And together we’ll go rolling down the hill
    And if you’ll be a fighter, I’ll be a flame
    We’ll go wild if you only say you will,
    And I know that you will

    So come on,
    Can you catch me? Can you catch me?
    I come running for the city
    Can you catch me? Can you catch me?
    I come running for the sea
    Can you catch me? Can you catch me?
    Would you jump across a highway?
    Can you catch me? No, you can’t catch me!

  • 05

    This is a history
    Of things that never happened
    Of things that never happened
    Between you and me
    I’d rather be unhappy
    I’d rather be unhappy
    Than lose my memory
    Of all the things that never happened

    I was there,
    Painted into the picture
    Some hatchback summer, yeah,
    I was there
    Just a boy with a blister,
    You wouldn’t remember
    But I was there

    Too unsure to make a sound,
    But I wrote it all down

    This is a history
    Of things that never happened
    Of things that never happened
    Between you and me
    I’d rather be unhappy
    I’d rather be unhappy
    Than lose my memory
    Of all the things that never happened

    You were mine
    By the water together
    With no dark figure there,
    You were mine
    Tied a string ‘round your finger,
    I felt much better, yeah,
    You were mine

    I was sure, and you were proud,
    And I wrote it all down

Come Alive

Come Alive

2012

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  • 01

    Some kind of lover
    Some kind of bug in my mind
    Chewing up my conscience
    Spit out the seed and swallowed my pride

    I’m trailing blood
    I’m trailing blood from my hands
    A lit firecracker
    Between my lips, I’m a modern man

    At the edge of the wheel
    That’ll never stop turning
    Spun away from the middle
    I’ve come alive, come alive

    I’ll forget this fever
    I’ll forget crawling back to your palm
    To feed off of your meaning
    Cause I know, I know, I know that it’s gone

    I’m at the edge of the wheel
    That’ll never stop turning
    Spun away from the middle
    I’ve come alive, come alive

    Your lip’s got a quiver
    Telling me there’s something wrong

    And my brain just got a shiver
    You gotta tell me if there’s something wrong

    Goddamn the youth
    And goddamn this good excuse
    To curse through my teeth and lie
    And let my tongue tie a noose

    I don’t need your pity
    And I don’t need your warning
    I don’t care if you hear me
    I’ve come alive, I’m alive

    At the edge of the wheel
    That’ll never stop turning
    Spun away from the middle
    I’ve come alive, come alive

Nothing To Die

Nothing To Die

2010

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  • 01

    These eleven days of summer
    I have called you
    You always come when I call you
    But I don’t hear your feet

    We swallowed up the river
    But still we never found you
    The season came and it drowned you
    In sorrow and in heat

    Oh, what’s happening?
    Call it the nation’s,
    Call it the nation’s war
    Oh, it’s happening
    This morning we woke up,
    This morning we woke up old

    I could feel your breathing
    Your healing heart was beating
    But now my head is beating
    Like the clapper of a bell

    The fireworks are funny
    The duds fall in the water
    Fizzling like futures
    The hissing sound of hell

    From here the days get shorter
    Tireless, but older
    Come on, let’s get older
    And keep our hands held down

  • 02

    The lights were on all night again
    In the first house on the right
    The voices echoed around again
    And the light shone in my eyes

    Looking in the window I thought
    Maybe I would see you
    In the room at the top of the stairs

    And maybe I would see myself
    Lying there beside you
    Right where I remember
    When I used to live there

    You called to me, you called me here
    To the house all painted white
    And I answered ‘cause I knew that I,
    I was doing something right

    But looking in the window I was
    Doing something wrong
    Waiting for my heart to slow

    And I wouldn’t recognize myself
    So young and desperate
    A stranger on a corner
    In a town he used to know

    But I’m still here,
    So tell me, where’d you go?

    Looking in the window I thought
    Maybe I would see you
    Staring at the ceiling
    Or lost in some strange dream

    Maybe I would hear you
    Talking to your lover
    Your faces cut to pieces
    By the window screen

    But I’m still here,
    So tell me, where’d you go?

  • 03

    You should come over
    You should come over
    The stars are out
    The stars are out
    You can ignore me
    You can ignore me
    I’ve done without
    I’ve done without
    I have been slipping
    I have been slipping out
    Through the cracks
    Through the cracks
    Don’t say a word to me
    Don’t say a word
    Out the door,
    Not coming back

    Dusty loners over the moon
    Over shoulders, gone too soon

    Don’t you dare disappear,
    I can’t be alone,
    I can’t be alone
    Don’t you dare disappear,
    I can’t be alone,
    I can’t be alone

    Get a grip, dear
    Get a grip, dear
    Just this once
    Just this once
    I don’t mean to fool you
    I don’t mean to fool you
    I am only with you once
    The full moon is singing
    I know what it’s saying,
    “One last time,
    One last time,”
    Everything is never enough
    Everything, one last time

  • 04

    You say you found some,
    You say you found someone, okay.
    And he’s a doctor,
    And he’s a doctor, my lord good day

    Heavy and empty,
    Heavy and empty,
    Heavy and empty,
    Hearts on fire and heads to sleep,
    And Lovers on their hands and knees

    Be careful love can,
    Be careful love can come
    And love can go to hell
    And it’s a problem,
    And it’s a problem, oh well.

    And now you and I,
    And now you and I are out of love
    And I am born again,
    Tonight I’m born again

  • 05

    Your shoes are in the living room
    And the keys are in the cellar
    The note’s right where you left it
    And I guess I don’t care
    Your mother keeps on prying
    But I don’t think that I’ll tell her
    Besides, you lied, I don’t even know where you are

    I think about your empty house
    And I think about your girlhood,
    I think about you thinking of me
    That watery stare
    Well I just think and I
    Think think think
    And I wonder if it’ll do good,
    Miscommunicating into thin air

    And I’m flying up and off the handle
    But flying all the same,
    Flying up and off the handle
    But flying all the same

    I, I, I, I, I, I,
    I gotta be, gotta be, gotta be crazy,
    I, I, I, I, I, I,
    should have been holding my tongue.
    I, I, I, I, I, I,
    I gotta be, gotta be, gotta be crazy,
    I, I, I, I, I, I,
    should have been holding my tongue.

    Well I dreamed I dreamed I dreamed I dreamed
    I was choking on feathers,
    Flowers of the bone,
    Flowers of the bone
    And I swallowed them swallowed them
    Down down,
    And my body got lighter,
    And now I cannot sink, I cannot go home

  • 06

    I would run away from the devil’s face
    But I’m caught between the sheets
    Tumbling and turning deliriously,
    Feversleep

    My own broken ghost is coming after me,
    It’s aching, legless creep
    Children, children, I know why you weep,
    Feversleep

    And I am my own savior, I am my own release,
    But holding back my hand is a sentimental streak
    And my hand, my hand
    Can pull me up or pull me down to
    Feversleep

    It’s not its rotten fingers that frighten me,
    Or its sneering toothless crease
    It’s how I can feel its breath on my face
    It’s real enough to breathe

    And I am my own savior, I am my own release,
    But holding back my hand is a sentimental streak
    And my hand, my hand
    Can pull me up or pull me down to
    Feversleep

  • 07

    If you can’t eat
    You got to smoke,
    And we ain’t got nothing to smoke
    So come on, kid,
    Let’s go to sleep

    If you can’t smoke
    You got to sing,
    And we ain’t got nothing to sing
    So come on, kid,
    Let’s go to sleep

    Come on, kid
    Let’s go to sleep
    Come on, kid

    If you can’t sing
    You got to die,
    And we ain’t got nothing to die
    So come on, kid,
    If you can’t die
    You got to dream,
    And we ain’t got nothing to dream
    Nothing to dream

    If you can’t eat
    You got to smoke,
    If you can’t smoke
    You got to sing,
    If you can’t sing
    You got to die,
    If you can’t die
    You got to dream

  • 08

    Red bird,
    Your wing’s not broken,
    Still you cannot fly
    You were born to this earth
    And it’s to this earth you’ll die

    Red bird,
    Drunk on water,
    Sing your song to me.
    You’ll climb so high,
    but you won’t sleep tonight

    You’ll be there in the morning
    You’ll be there when I wake
    You’ll be there,
    But I won’t hear your call

    Red bird,
    The stars are silent,
    The twilight’s turned you grey
    You were born to this earth
    And it’s to this earth you’ll stay

    Red bird,
    Tell me truly,
    Tell me who you love.
    You’ll climb so high,
    But I won’t leave your side

    You’ll be there in the morning
    You’ll be there when I wake
    You’ll be there,
    But I won’t hear your call

  • 09

    It must be time to leave,
    The sun is coming up
    But I can’t even stand up
    The morning clouds are rolling in
    But the new year’s failing to begin,
    It’s too drunk

    And I’m the only soul awake, it’s clear
    And the silence numbs my ears
    But I’ll creep down the hallway soon
    And leave the strangers sleeping in the bathroom

    This is my tradition,
    This is my tradition

    The years keep coming on and on
    The light in my room turns off and on
    My head keeps turning off and on,
    And on, and on, and on, and on

    I saw you winking an eye at me all night
    And I know, and I see, and it’s not right
    But a slippery touch and a gentle call
    Is all is all is all is all I needed

    Well I think about screaming so I do it
    I scream “We’re all gonna die!” and no one moves a bit
    And it cracks my heart right to the floor
    To see the sun rising on an audience so poor

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    This is god
    Coming to his ending
    Today is turning on
    Finally the ending

    Kings of little worlds
    Go and make your peace
    Today is turning on
    Go and make your peace

    And I see blood rivers rising
    From the lord and the fates
    That followed him
    And I see blood rivers rising

    We have visions
    We have visions
    Oh my life
    We have visions